It will get better for you

I had a conversation with a 21 year-old friend in Austin recently about how old he’ll feel when he’s my age (25) and how worried he is about the next few years.

It struck me during the conversation how much I felt the same at that age and how differently I feel now. 25 is shaping up to be one of the best years of my life. I’m calmer, more focused, better positioned, and happier than I’ve ever been.

I feel younger now at 25 than I did at 21. Big mistakes you make eventually become comical lessons and even good memories in a way and what’s left is just excitement for your future and the realization that you never needed to worry that much at all.

From Aeschylus in the Orestia:

Zeus has led us on to know,
the Helmsman lays it down as law
that we must suffer, suffer into truth.
We cannot sleep, and drop by drop at the heart
the pain of pain remembered comes again,
and we resist, but ripeness comes as well.
From the gods enthroned on the awesome rowing-bench
there comes a violent love.

From Knights of the Old Republic 2:

Vrook: “You were deafened.
Kreia: “At last, you could hear.
Kavar: “You were broken.
Kreia: “You were whole.
Zez-Kai Ell: “You were blinded.
Kreia: “And at last… you saw.

From Donnie Darko:

I promise, that one day, everything’s going to be better for you.

From The Fountainhead:

I’m not capable of suffering completely. I never have. It goes only down to a certain point and then it stops. As long as there is that untouched point, it’s not really pain.

It turned out I should have listened better to the things the people I admired had written all along.